Tuesday, 25 October 2016

My New Journey

It's public knowledge that for the past couple of years I have been on a real journey in terms of how I live my life and the mental health boundaries that I have faced. I started out two years ago being able to do exactly what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it, and all of a sudden all of that was stripped back from me because of my anxiety.

For a while, I couldn't do anything.

I've progressed so much since then though, doing things from leaving my house for the first time, to going out for a meal with friends. And honestly, from looking back at my journey and where I started, I am so proud of myself. I'm unrecognisable from who I was a year ago, and I only have to look at the photos I've taken along the way to see that.

But recently, I feel like I've plateaued a bit. I feel like the progress has slowed down; almost stopped. I think because I've finally got to a stage where I can go to work everyday, go out with my friends, and live a relatively normal life on a day-to-day basis that the drive to get better has stopped, and I hate that. Yes, I can do lots of things that I couldn't before and that's amazing, but I want to be able to do so much more. 

It's simple really - I'm not happy with the way my life is right now. I'm not content with living this way for the rest of my life. I want to be free from anxiety and I won't settle for any less. 

So really, I guess you could say that this is where my new journey begins. Small Steps are Massive was a great journey for me back then, it worked miracles, but it's not really working for me right now, and that's OK.

I want to try all of those things that people tell you to do when you suffer with anxiety, but that you brush off. Because right now I'm needing a boost, and if anything helps even slightly, it's worth doing. 

  1. Exercising - I definitely do not do this enough (barely ever), however now it going to become a part of my weekly routine
  2. Healthy eating - Again, not my strongest point. I work in a college and get school dinners on a daily basis (but I'm going to try my hardest to change that - I will resist the apple crumble)
  3. Medication - If the above two points are not enough, I will go back onto medication. There's no harm in accepting help of any form if it allows you to live your life better
  4. Pushing myself - Once a month I will attempt to do something that I cannot yet do. I don't promise to manage it, but I will try. 
This is my new journey and I'm actually excited to get started with it. I'm eager and motivated; I'm ready to fight. It's not enough to just accept something unhappy in your life - do everything in your power to change it. 

(And now that I've written it down, you can hold me accountable - I actually have to make these changes)



  1. I'm so proud of you for how far you have come and I'm excited to see you undertake this new journey! I hope all goes well for you :) xx

  2. It's great how you're not willing to settle, and are being proactive in taking those next steps. Good for you, because it's easy to be stagnant for a long time (with health, relationships, job, whatever). But knowing you want more is awesome. Enjoy this next part of your journey! Take care, Jenny

    1. Thanks Jenny! I have to not be so hard on myself when things aren't constantly improving, because it's never going to be a smooth sailing battle all the time!

  3. So proud of you - please drag me along for the exercise and healthy eating!! And will do everything I can to help, love you zillions xx